Lifetime: This is for you, Ma

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I did it.  I am now a lifetime member at Weight Watchers.  As long as I stay within a healthy weight range I no longer have to pay and it’s free.

IT’S FREE GUYS.

When I first joined WW over 15 years ago I don’t know if I ever actually believed it was possible.

This time I faked it ’till I made it.

I DID IT.

Yes I wanted to be healthier for sure.  There’s also that part of me that wanted to look better – I can admit that.  There’s one reason though that I’ve never really talked about before.

My Mom.

My Mother struggled with weight her entire life.  You wouldn’t know it by looking at her – she was thin as a rail until probably her mid 40’s.  It was how she was skinny as a rail that was the problem.

She didn’t eat, or at least not much.  We both gained weight in the early 2000’s and we both went to WW.  For her years of abusing her body made her so sick she finally had to eat or die and the weight came on.

We really had some awesome talks about weight back then.  I learned a lot about her issues with food.  She always worried about me, because I tend to show elevated sugar when I get heavier, and her Mother died at 54 from Diabetic complications.

My Grandma refused to change her diet when she became Diabetic, and she died because of it.  She drank Pepsi like water and was heavy.  My Mom always had a huge dislike of any kind of pop, and it wasn’t until I lost her that I realized how horrible it must have been for her.

She had three little kids and was only 33 or 34 years old when her Mom died.  I was 41 and that was hard enough.  I don’t know how people younger get through it.

So even though my siblings are much bigger than I am she always worried about me.  She didn’t want me turning out like my Grandmother.

I can see why.

It was funny because I was visiting and one of our distant relatives came over.  They were talking about my Grandma like she was this saint – this awesome person.  After they left I remember telling my Mom how I didn’t know that person.  I knew an angry, mean old lady.

I can still hear her bellowing “LESTER” at my Grandpa every time she wanted something.

I also remember her saying things like “Are you sure you want to eat that” to my Mom while pointedly looking at her.  I don’t care how young you are, kids pick up that stuff.

And they remember it.

My Mom explained that she was really sick most of the time after I was born.  She had to have her leg amputated right before she passed.  She was just sick.

I had asked my Mom why she hasn’t said anything when I or my siblings starting pudging out in our late teens.  She explained how her Mom had always criticized everything that went into her mouth and she didn’t want to do that to us.

Maybe my Grandmother didn’t want my Mom to be overweight like her so that’s why she did it.  Just like my Mom didn’t want me to turn into my Grandma.

I really had no idea about nutrition before I went to WW.  I mean when I wanted to lose 5 or 10 pounds in my 20’s I just would barely eat.

That is what I learned growing up, whether my Mom wanted me to learn that or not.

Weight Watchers opened my eyes to how I was eating, and even though I didn’t make it to goal each time I never ever gained back all the weight from the very start.

So getting to goal and making Lifetime is for my Mother, who desperately wanted that for me.  So desperately in fact pretty much the last thing she said to me before she left this Earth was “Please go back to Weight Watchers you can do it”.

I’ve never told anyone that before.  She never stopped worrying that I would turn out like her Mom.

So please remember your kids are watching and learning – the good and the bad.  You can set an awesome example, or you can be a horrible warning.

I never want to be remembered as a mean spirited old lady who can’t do anything.  I don’t want to work my whole life and then not be able to enjoy it when I get older.

My great nephew thinks I’m a ninja.  Let’s keep it that way.

I know there are a lot of people in Weight Watchers that believe in “No Finish Line” or something like that.

I’ve crossed the finish line.  I finished my race.  I did it, I accomplished it.

There’s a new race now that I’m just starting.  I hope you come along for the ride.

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