Lifetime: This is for you, Ma

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I did it.  I am now a lifetime member at Weight Watchers.  As long as I stay within a healthy weight range I no longer have to pay and it’s free.

IT’S FREE GUYS.

When I first joined WW over 15 years ago I don’t know if I ever actually believed it was possible.

This time I faked it ’till I made it.

I DID IT.

Yes I wanted to be healthier for sure.  There’s also that part of me that wanted to look better – I can admit that.  There’s one reason though that I’ve never really talked about before.

My Mom.

My Mother struggled with weight her entire life.  You wouldn’t know it by looking at her – she was thin as a rail until probably her mid 40’s.  It was how she was skinny as a rail that was the problem.

She didn’t eat, or at least not much.  We both gained weight in the early 2000’s and we both went to WW.  For her years of abusing her body made her so sick she finally had to eat or die and the weight came on.

We really had some awesome talks about weight back then.  I learned a lot about her issues with food.  She always worried about me, because I tend to show elevated sugar when I get heavier, and her Mother died at 54 from Diabetic complications.

My Grandma refused to change her diet when she became Diabetic, and she died because of it.  She drank Pepsi like water and was heavy.  My Mom always had a huge dislike of any kind of pop, and it wasn’t until I lost her that I realized how horrible it must have been for her.

She had three little kids and was only 33 or 34 years old when her Mom died.  I was 41 and that was hard enough.  I don’t know how people younger get through it.

So even though my siblings are much bigger than I am she always worried about me.  She didn’t want me turning out like my Grandmother.

I can see why.

It was funny because I was visiting and one of our distant relatives came over.  They were talking about my Grandma like she was this saint – this awesome person.  After they left I remember telling my Mom how I didn’t know that person.  I knew an angry, mean old lady.

I can still hear her bellowing “LESTER” at my Grandpa every time she wanted something.

I also remember her saying things like “Are you sure you want to eat that” to my Mom while pointedly looking at her.  I don’t care how young you are, kids pick up that stuff.

And they remember it.

My Mom explained that she was really sick most of the time after I was born.  She had to have her leg amputated right before she passed.  She was just sick.

I had asked my Mom why she hasn’t said anything when I or my siblings starting pudging out in our late teens.  She explained how her Mom had always criticized everything that went into her mouth and she didn’t want to do that to us.

Maybe my Grandmother didn’t want my Mom to be overweight like her so that’s why she did it.  Just like my Mom didn’t want me to turn into my Grandma.

I really had no idea about nutrition before I went to WW.  I mean when I wanted to lose 5 or 10 pounds in my 20’s I just would barely eat.

That is what I learned growing up, whether my Mom wanted me to learn that or not.

Weight Watchers opened my eyes to how I was eating, and even though I didn’t make it to goal each time I never ever gained back all the weight from the very start.

So getting to goal and making Lifetime is for my Mother, who desperately wanted that for me.  So desperately in fact pretty much the last thing she said to me before she left this Earth was “Please go back to Weight Watchers you can do it”.

I’ve never told anyone that before.  She never stopped worrying that I would turn out like her Mom.

So please remember your kids are watching and learning – the good and the bad.  You can set an awesome example, or you can be a horrible warning.

I never want to be remembered as a mean spirited old lady who can’t do anything.  I don’t want to work my whole life and then not be able to enjoy it when I get older.

My great nephew thinks I’m a ninja.  Let’s keep it that way.

I know there are a lot of people in Weight Watchers that believe in “No Finish Line” or something like that.

I’ve crossed the finish line.  I finished my race.  I did it, I accomplished it.

There’s a new race now that I’m just starting.  I hope you come along for the ride.

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Weigh in 9-9-17 Liftetime #4 Game Changer

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So this whole maintenance stuff has been harder than I thought it would be.

I lost more weight, half a pound.  Honestly I am eating 36 points a day and all my weekly points.

I’m eating a lot, or at least it feels like I am.  If you are currently in the weight loss portion of the program you probably want to smack me or beat me up in the parking lot.

Hell I want to smack me or beat me up in the parking lot.

This site has very interesting information about weight loss.  In a nutshell, say you want to weigh 150 pounds.  You need to eat an average of 1,800 calories a day to maintain that weight.  Most people would highly restrict their calories to lose weight if they weighed like 200 pounds.

But – If they just ate 1,800 calories a day they would naturally go down to that weight.  Yeah, it may not be Biggest Loser impressive but would probably be a lot more easy to maintain.

I think the Smartpoints version of Weight Watchers gets this.  The fact that no one ever gets less than 30 Smartpoints was a brilliant move.  I mean I remember back in the day when you would get close to goal you only got like 18 points a day and were basically starving all the time.

I’ve never been hungry this time.  Well I was one time in 6 months, and that was because I saved my points for a big celebration.  I lost weight A LOT faster on other versions of WW, but I could never get to the end.  This time I did.

The fact that I’m still losing and eating very well and balanced and not starving myself tells me that maybe I naturally will be a little smaller than the top of my weight range.  This was freaking me out because to make lifetime with Weight Watchers you have basically a 4 pound weight range you have to be in.  Two pounds above or two pounds below your goal weight at the end of the 6 weeks.

Once you get lifetime you can go smaller if you want, but you have to be in that range to reach lifetime first.

I’m currently 3 pounds below my goal, and I was about to do something like put a roll of quarters in my pocket or wear my shoes on the scale to make up for it.

I stopped myself though, because I made a deal with myself from the start that has served me well:  No games with the scale this time.

So I decided to face the music and be TO SMALL? for Weight Watchers.  I stepped on the scale almost cringing and the receptionist was just like “Oh you lost .6.  Good job!”

Wait, what?

So I’m all “I’ve lost a pound to much!”

And she’s all “Oh we don’t have to stay within 2 pounds on the bottom.  As long as you are in a healthy range you’re fine now.”

Game Changer.  For real.

Now I’m faced with the decision of what my set point is going to be.  Do I keep eating the way I am and see where I end up?  Do I eat more to try and stay the same even though I am not hungry and am very satisfied with the points I have right now?

Eating more than I should is what got me 63 pounds heavier, so I think I’m going to stick with the plan I have now and see what happens.  I can always adjust, right?

I’m not writing this post to be all “oh poor me I can’t stop losing weight.”  I’m writing it for all of you that feel frustrated right now because you might not be dropping weight like you did in the past with Weight Watchers.

The way I see it, it’s a very good thing.  I think now more than ever WW is teaching us a lifestyle change, something we really can do the rest of our lives.

I mean wouldn’t you rather lose slow and be able to keep it off forever than to lose it quick and gain it back with some friends a little down the line.  Don’t get frustrated, keep on plugging through and then you can tell me how hard it is not to lose weight some day.  I promise.

That’s the real game changer.

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Weigh In 9-2-17 Lifetime #3

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So this is what losing 62 pounds looks like on a 5’8″ woman.  It’s funny because most days I don’t feel like I look any different than before.  Then I see pictures like this side by side and think “holy crap”.

I mean how can you look this different but not see it yourself until you see your former self next to your new self.

That’s kind of messed up.  I’ll need to think on that one a bit….

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Weigh In 8-7-17 – It’s Not Me It’s You

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So I’m done with my temper tantrum from last week and was down a pound.  That means one more to go!  It’s still just weird to think about not thinking about losing weight.

I mean I’ll always have to be mindful of what I’m putting in my mouth and I’ve resigned myself to the fact that I will always need to track my food unless I want to go back up 70+ pounds.  Yes as the title in my blog states I am a serial Weight Watcher and if you go from my very first (and highest) weight with Weight Watchers I’ve lost 79 pounds.

You do what works and that’s what works for me.

It’s funny when you lose a lot of weight.  You get a lot of compliments of course and there are also a lot of things that can derail you if you let them.

When you are overweight you get treated a lot differently than when you are not.  You are almost invisible when you are an overweight woman (and maybe man, sorry guys I can’t speak for you), and when all of a sudden you are not it can make you almost uncomfortable or have negative thoughts.

Like the other day – I was at the gas station and this young man jogged past me to open the door for me.  It was a very nice gesture and I said thank you, but those thoughts entered my mind – he wouldn’t have done that 60 pounds ago.

This particular person very well could have, but in my experience that’s not the case.  You can let things like that bother you, or you can just accept the nice gesture.

Having those thoughts or negative feelings will not change the way people are treated one way or the other.  I had a revelation a few months ago, and it has totally changed the way I think of myself, other women, and how we treat each other.

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Weigh in 7-29-17 – Oh Bloody Hell

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Grrrr…

I was angry, oh yes, ANGRY.

You see I thought I was two pounds from my goal weight.  Well, 2.6 pounds.  I thought I might have it.  I thought when I stepped on that scale I might hear them shout goal and confetti would come out of the sky and Oprah would give me the keys to a new car.

Well of course that wouldn’t all happen but I would have made goal.

Did I ever tell you I’m a goal oriented type of person.  I like to ACHIEVE, which is probably why Weight Watchers works so well for me.

Anyway, so I’m about to get on the scale and I tell the receptionist that I think I might have it or will only be a few tenths away and she asks how tall I am and it turns out the last receptionist figured out my goal weight wrong and I’m really 3.6 pounds away.  Phew.

Say what?

I know, I know….I’m doing this for my health blah flippin’ blah.

So what’s one pound, right?  It’s nothing in the scheme of things, and I’m angry at myself for being angry.

I still got angry in spite of myself.  So I have to lose 2 more pounds instead of 1 pound to get to goal.  Big deal, right?

Well Weight Watchers may be all “BEYOND THE SCALE” now but guess what….That scale is still there and it still dictates when you are at goal and when you are at lifetime.

I want to be at freakin’ goal and I will get to freakin’ goal.

It’s just going to take me an extra week or two.  Let me tell you, when you get to the bottom of the barrel weight wise it is not that easy.

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Weigh In 7-22-17 – All the Feels

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So I thought I had a tumor but it turns out it was a bone I haven’t felt in 15 years.  How was your week?

Oh, and I lost 2 more pounds.  After that 3 pound lost last week I thought for sure I’d have a very small one this week.

I. Am. Only. 2.6 Pounds. From. Goal.

I will then try not to lose weight.  What? 

If I try and remember a time when I wasn’t at least thinking about my weight I’d have to go back to when I was 10 years old.  I was a horrible sleeper and my parents finally gave up trying to make me stay in bed, so I’d get up and watch TV in the middle of the night at least a couple times a week.

There was an infomercial on and they were talking about back fat.  I vividly remember reaching around and thinking that I might have that!  And it was Bad!  I was in 4th grade and weighed 69 pounds.  I remember that for obvious reasons.

Seriously in the 80’s kids new what that number meant and it being announced in front of everyone will scar you for life.  I wonder if they still do that to kids?

I think the average 10 year old is supposed to weigh like 75 pounds, so yeah, I didn’t have an inch of fat on me.

So most of my life I’ve thought about my weight or losing weight.  In the culture we live in I’m guessing that is the case for most females, if not males.  Do you all have similar experiences?

It feels weird to think about it, that I will be at the weight I want to be at.  It almost feels uncomfortable.

I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it I suppose.  Now I’m just going to power on to rid myself of those last 2.6 pounds.  I am expecting a stand still soon here, and that’s okay.  My body likes it’s fat and tends to hold on for a week or two before giving it up.  Two big losses like that in a row is a small miracle.

Oh, and I’ve received a ton of support from the Instant Pot Community on Facebook.  I received a ton of messages asking if I knew of a healthy recipe pressure cooker community.  I didn’t so I started one.  Please join if you are interested in healthy recipes for your pressure cooker!

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Also I’ve gotten a lot of feedback that people really like my A Day in the Life – 30 Point Day, so I’m going to try and post a 30 point day each week.

Have a great week everyone!

Weigh In 7-15-17: I’m one of THOSE People

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So I got to weigh in this week despite my 2 week long no break from work.  I lost 3 pounds!

This puts me to the point in my weight loss that I only have to lose 5.4 pounds to be at a “healthy” weight.  Like not obese, not overweight, but HEALTHY.

This is my goal.  Sure I could probably lose a few vanity pounds after that, but I’m not to much worried about that.  This time around this whole journey has been about being the best I can be health wise, and it has made all the difference in the world.

People are always asking me “are you done?”  “do you really want to lose more weight?” so when a friend of mine asked me that this weekend and I replied “I want to lose about 5 more pounds” I totally understood her eye roll.

I remember being the heavier person that just wanted to smack the crap out of some skinny person that whined about wanting to lose 5 more pounds.  I don’t consider myself skinny at all, but it is still a little comical to have been on both sides of that fence.